Tuesday, June 2, 2015

I decided to take my oncologist's advice, and will be seeing a psychologist tomorrow.  I sort of feel like a failure because I'm having trouble coping.  I saw many patients when I worked in oncology who were so positive and upbeat, and I wonder why I can't be one of those people, too.  What's wrong with me?  I want to be happy.  I want to enjoy my remission, however long it lasts.  I'm certainly not choosing to be unhappy.  I'm not choosing to stay holed up in the house.  Between fatigue and pain, it's hard to be sociable.  People don't understand this, which adds to the burden I'm already carrying.

My "Far Side" cartoon for my upcoming appt. with the psychologist:




(It says "Just plain nuts," for those of you who can't read it.)

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  1. After my frontline treatment, instead of dancing down the halls, I became absorbed, maybe obsessed with my disease. I couldn't stop reading and researching. I was definitely not in a happy place, so I know what you are feeling. It's a feeling of waiting for the other shoe to drop.

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    1. Exactly! I have had a lot of complications from my treatment too. I know that people mean well, but when they say I should get out and do things, I don't think they always realize just how difficult it is for me to get out of the house.

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